Thinking of picking up the drink, the bowl, pill, needle or what ever your DOC was. Please play the tape all the way through.
Think about and ask yourself this.... Are you willing to give up everything you have worked for just to get high and feel like 
when you crash or come down? Again please play the tape all the way through to the end and ask yourself "is it worth it?"
If I didn't care I wouldn't say anything and let you continue to destroy yourself.