I'll ha e 5 mo sober in a few days. Been finding myself feeling kinda depressed a lil lately. The pink cloud feeling has sorta started to wear off. I mostly stopped doing everything I used to do so I can maintain recovery. I feel like I'm starting to lose it a little bit here 
how can I see everything positive through when negative things happen
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Congratulations. Keep doing what you’re doing, pink cloud or not, if you maintain the sobriety routine you’ll have a far better chance.
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Negative things were always happening. It's just harder when you've got to feel all your feelings about the negative stuff. And that's ok! Processing your emotions and dealing with setbacks will totally get easier with time though. It's just a muscle that you've got to work on - and it probably got a little weak while you were using a substance instead. The good news is you're already strengthening that muscle even if it feels hard.
If personal therapy is an option for you, i highly recommend talking to someone. For me, i had years and years of stuff that I avoided while drinking and suddenly needed to sort through. I found EMDR to be especially helpful with PTSD that was really making my emotional responses feel like too much.
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Thank you truly. I am trying to get into counseling. ATM I have the lowest form of Medicaid only and only have a slight clue of who to call. The one place I've called several times never answers their phone, it's a pain I've been using this online stuff a lot to try to reach people like me. It makes sense about restrengthening that feeling muscle
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Sorry to hear it's been hard lately. Your last sentence really catches me about "how can I see everything positive through.... " I've learned in my journey that my recovery means that I will see all the positives and all the negatives through. I am constantly growing, learning, developing areas of my life that were neglected or just nonexistent due to a horrible way of living. We know that life is not easy, not all sunshine and rainbows, and hard things will happen to us. Staying sober and developing those areas of coping, of understanding, of strength, using our tools and supports, will be how we continue to grow. How we will not only get through a moment, sometimes even days, of negative events, but face them head on and live through them. Keep your head clear, reach out when you need to, and remember you have survived everything life has thrown at you up to this point. You've got this!
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Thanks for writing. I can't help but feel some of what I'm feeling was self induced. I have to learn how to be better and live the better life that I was to do
Do your best not to talk negatively to yourself, something I am still working on myself, and give yourself kudos for each day of sobriety, give credit to yourself for fighting, growing, learning. And most importantly show yourself kindness, love and understanding
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Congratulations!! Keep your head up and don't look back...
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Thanks so much for all the kind words
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