Im 1 month and 3 weeks sober. First timer here.. I've been

Im 1 month and 3 weeks sober.
First timer here..

I've been in and out of the rooms for years now.
Have my collection of beginner chips and a few monthly ones.
This time around, i feel such a huge difference. I feel the usual
Focused, energized, and happier.
However, it's the sitting in my thoughts that's hard to take.
I keep myself super busy. Im up super early and asleep the same.

Plus, age has lots to do with it this time around , im tired and fed up.
Body and mind cant take it anymore. I wasnt at it every night. Not that it matters. One drink is too much.

I know it's said to just let yourself feel and go through whatever pain or issues at the moment.
Its the past regrets that haunt me
I know everything about focusing on today and the past is the past, and i do believe that things are put in your path for a reason, that this was my destiny.
Its life lessons, i guess. It's the thoughts that bring on the sadness and pain thinking of my self destructive life i lead.

Looking forward to hearing and sharing on this site

Thank you and Bless you

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Welcome here.
Go to meetings, read the Big Book, get a sponsor and work the steps. Whatever you were doing to collect the beginner chips wasn’t working. Do it differently this time.

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Thank you Matt, appreciate that.
Yes, I am working on all those things.
Im going hard this time around

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Welcome Hopie! I’m almost 3 months sober. My thoughts, getting in my head is my worst enemy. Had a rough frustrating evening last night with it. I get where you’re coming from. I wish you the best. We’re all in this together.

Hi Mindy
O busy, forgot to check in here.
Awesome for you!
I totally get what you are saying
I have my moments too, that's for sure.
I just tell myself, "How will I feel in the morning?" And I power through it.
Then when I wake in the morning, I'm like " phew"
I try to keep busy , I go bed super early and wake up very early.
It's been helping me.
I like watching documentaries before bed.
On whatever and it distracts me
I wish you a very successful sobriety and congrats on your upcoming 3 months.
Bravo
Wishb you a happy and fulfilled day

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Keep coming back. I relate to the past haunting me. Today I am aware if I slip all my hard work could be taking away. I’m over that part..