Im struggling & I’ve been struggling for a whole year & im not making ANY PROGRESS either 
i stop then i start & its an off & on thing! Im embarrassed because ive told my kids & my family that ive stopped & i haven’t. Ive tried AA/NA (im an ex addict as well) & i just can’t listen to the same stories all the time & it’s depressing! Ive been going to church off & on for a year & i haven’t told my congregation anything about it yet because im embarrassed because i attend with one of my sons. Idk what i need to do to help myself but what I’ve been doing what i think is right but thats not whats going on. I just wanna be able to be normal & i do have bipolar & take meds & i know i shouldn’t. I’ve bought so many books on my disease & everything imaginable! Im a lost cause
Give yourself grace - try to be open and honest about your struggles - took me 30 years to quit drinking - it won’t take you that long!!!
A big key for me was surrender. I struggled just like you for 30 years. I finally had enough pain that I surrendered my will and my life over to God. I would pray "God you know my heart. You know I want to be clean. I can't do this on my own. I surrender all to you, Lord! Please forgive me for my shortcomings. Thank you that I am alive and all the many blessing you give me even though I don't deserve them. Please take my will and my life and guide me, and direct my path. Please remove temptation away from me and relieve me of the obsession to drink and use. Forgive me of my failure and give me strength to trust in you and not use just for today. I love you, Lord. Thank you for your grace and mercy. Please help me to do your will and not my own. Thank you for dwelling in me and loving me. Holy Spirit guide and direct me in my daily life. Thank you for what you're about to do in my life because I believe you can
I believe anything is possible with you, Lord. Strengthen my faith in you so that my compulsion to use will leave, and I can have a sober life by surrendering you my own will and trusting your plans for me. IN JESUS NAME AMEN"
Nobody is a lost cause.
You're doing your best!
Remember to be kind to yourself and love yourself and forgive yourself.
Hmu anytime
I just read this aloud to myself. Thank you so much
Thank you
Stay humble... it's ok to not be perfect. It sounds to me like youre feeling more guilty than anything. You can lie to everybody else but you cant lie to yourself. With that being said I think honesty is the best policy. Not necessarily your kids yet but tell somebody. It helps having somebody that'll hold you accountable besides yourself. I hope this helped. Good luck to you...
What u on if i may ask?
The fact that youre wanting it speaks volumes now you just need to find something you love more than getting buzzed and use that as your anchor
Nobody's lost. that's what u have brothers and sisters in recovery for .be open with them at ur church it will be one less burden for u
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@araceli335299 You're only a "lost cause" because you are allowing yourself to be.
Stop playing the victim or subscribing to it.
Leave the pity party, put on your big girl panties and stop feeling sorry for yourself.
Either take sobriety seriously or get back out there and continue with your insanity.
We are not going to coddle you. We want you to live. For those who will coddle you they will bury you.
You have a lot available for you that has been placed at your feet.
Go seize it along with some serious sobriety.
You may want to start going to AA meetings, get a sponsor and start reading the Big Book.
You're not a lost cause Araceli, go to AA meetings and start to do service regardless what your mind is telling you. You keep coming back, stick around for the Miracle!
Be open and honest!!! And if you are not crazy about your meetings. Try to find a different one just get really enjoyed in community. But you going to be open and honest we are only as sick as our secrets
You’re not a lost cause, not even close. You may be overwhelmed and carrying more a lot rn, and I say that with love.
So many of us have been in that same cycle, stop, start, try again, spiral. When things quiet down, sometimes that’s when the emotions hit hardest. That doesn’t mean you’re failing, it just means you’ve been holding a lot on your own.
Shame has a way of convincing you it’s safer to hide, but in reality the longer you stay quiet, the heavier it all gets. It’s hard to move forward when the pain doesn’t have a place to go.
What you’ve lived through isn’t embarrassing, it’s actually the opposite , powerful. When you get through this you’ll be able to help someone else and that what’s amazing about recovery.
Have you ever worked through the steps with someone? They do give you something solid to build on.
Have you had a therapist or sponsor who understands both addiction and mental health?
Talk to God about it. Ask Him for help with just one next step. That’s enough for today.
If you haven’t checked out SAM™️, it’s here in the app. Let us know how you’re doing. You got this.