I'm at my sister inlaws and everyone is reminiscing about their not so long ago partying days. I'm listening to stories about my husband getting high and drunk. Stories I've never heard. I feel like the walls are closing in. On one hand I'm mad I've never heard these stories. Some of which we were together for. On the other I am triggered and completely uncomfortable. We rarely come into town to see them. I recently had my husband move out due to his anger issues and bringing the issue up won't go over. I'm trapped four counties over and I can feel my anxiety building. Even the idea of politely trying to change the subject has me almost in panic. My husband won't quit looking at me. I know he is going to push the subject of what was going on with me when we take the kids back to the hotel. I tried taking a walk. I've picked a hole through my finger. I need words. Any words. Words of reason. Help me.
Hi Kendra, how are you doing today? Being in situations like that can be so difficult. I hope you were able to stay strong and get through it. Frequently when I am out in these types of situations I will leave the room and take a few rounds of box breath in order recenter.
Just be you!! Don’t be ashamed of your sobriety. You got this!!!