I'm feeling quite low right now. My mom died recently. My dog is currently struggling to stay alive. My gf is emotionally abusive and just told me she isn't attracted to me. The state of the world has me so depressed, anxious, and angry. It just feels like the suffering never ends. I have no one to talk to about this heavy sh*t in my heart. 
You definitely have a lot to deal with and this world isn’t doing any of us any favors. My prayers and hugs go out to you! Keep looking up and keep moving forward, we are all here for you