I'm fighting tooth and nail for my sobriety and to

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#1

I'm fighting tooth and nail for my sobriety and to get through each minute. This is my first death since giving up the alcohol for good and the thought of drinking and getting drunk has been on my mind. I want to escape everything. I want to scream and yell at my higher power. I want to hide from the world. I leave Thursday morning around 9am to get to my friend's place then get my suit on then drive to the awake then Friday is the funeral and burial and I'm one of the pallbearers. On my side of the family between my cousins and my kid sister and I'm the fith oldest,the 2nd tallest in my family but I'm my Aunt's first and oldest nephew and since birth,her and I were really close

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#2

My thoughts and prayers are with you. May you find the strength to push thru these difficult times. Continue to stay connected. We are stronger together :pray:

#3

It’s really hard to face pain without the old coping tools, but that’s where healing happens. You have to feel to heal. You’re already doing something brave by talking about it and staying connected. Be gentle with yourself right now, and keep reaching out. You don’t have to go through it alone

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#4

Thank you and I'm doing my best. I don't know how I'm gonna get through tomorrow at work while knowing what Thursday and Friday is and tomorrow will be a week since my Aunt passed away

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#5

I personally lean pretty heavily on the serenity prayer during these times. It's easier said than done of course to not worry about what is outside your control. We are only human. One day at a time my friend :pray:

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#6

I'm sorry for your loss my friend, just remember your definitely not alone there's people out here that love you and want to see you succeed in life... I hope you have a wonderful day today :pray: God bless you and your family :pray::pray::pray:

#7

So sorry for your loss Chris. Sending prayers your way.