I'm loosing it big time. Still sober. I can't handle

Recovery
#1

I'm loosing it big time. Still sober. I can't handle life. I admit it I'm a miserable f$%k. I know if I go back I won't die. I will just be worse off. I'm engaging in a lot of risky behavior.I just don't see the light at the end of the tunnel

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#2

I get it, I miss some of it. I miss my x. I keep trying to tell myself boring is good. Lol It's filling the spaces that helps. At least that move a muscle change a thought has helped me. I also keep telling myself don't quit before the miracle. Meetings help me too! Just don't give up on yourself your worth it!! :hugs::hugs:

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#3

Thank you. It's more than boredom. I go to the gym. I even bought a newer car back in Feb.

#4

I do not have any body in my life that cares. Parents are dead. Ever since college I haven't had any friends. I had a huge fall out with grimy relatives. And one sister doesn't talk to because of b.s. my grimy family told her. And my other sister is stuck in Romainia next to the Ukrain. Oh and to top it all off I am struggling to fund a job. I hear ya though and thank you for reaching out. I appreciate that. And congratulations. BTW if you miss your ex I am single.
Just Kidding. Dating is the furthest thing from my mind have a good 3 day weekend

#5

Find something to keep yourself busy and keep your mind off other things. I find that hiking state parks or fishing is a great activity to keep your mind off other things.

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#7

Stick with it. Not all days are great but a lot of them can be if we just do the next right thing. Good luck to you. And I agree keeping yourself busy with maybe a new hobby was helpful to me.

#8

Hey that gave me an idea. Now that I have a car I can go places like that. I just hate doing everything alone. I loose my motivation. Really easily.

#9

Yeah if it were that easy. I have nobody who loves me at all in this world their all dead. All I have is people who don't like me and the feelings mutual. It's the worst feeling.. Nobody should go through this. I'm not going to hurt anylonger. For some reason your the first person who I have said this too. Things were different once. Nobody should feel like this Nobody.

#10

Hey Devin. I am a little stuck in my position also. I don’t partake in any risky behavior because of fear I would dishonor my past husbands memory. But I know it’s lonely as f***. I’m not saying I get all you’re going through, but I do know and feel a lot of what you do. It’s a rough road, but please keep with it, you deserve better.

#11

Thank you. And I really respect that about you not wanting to dishonor your husband. He was a lucky man. It's ruff. And, their is not many trustworthy people out their. I do try. Your not missing out by engaging in risky behavior. I still feel lonely. And it's not like I am making friends or even a support group doing it.