Im lost relapse after relapse cant control myself and my friends don't even no i indulge i feel lonely lost with no hope its hurting me so bad im older and i don't want to die but i feel i will if i dont stop
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Hi Renee,
I have been sober for about 4 months now. I really struggled with the obsession to drink. I have been going to AA for years and have been in and out if rehab facilities and jail. After stopping your mind will clear up and the need to drink will fade, I know it is really hard but the first thing you have to do is not drink. As simple as it sounds it was not easy for me as I was afraid to detox. AA is not a cure all but being around like minded people really helps me to this day.
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Thank you Troy and thank you for your testimony it means alot to me and i will go to some meeting s so i can be around people who understand what im going through and Congrats in your 3 months sober
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Hi Renee I am in the same boat. Just last week I started going to meetings. I don’t agree with everything AA teaches however I have gone to meeting everyday for a week. The people I have met are wonderful. I have not stopped drinking but I am drinking less. I feel I am finally ready to not drink tomorrow at all. I feel like I might have a chance. I hope you find some good groups!
Hi Renee my name is jennifer, and I have been continuously clean and sober for 27 years. One day at a time. And like the book of alcoholics anonymous, (that's the way of life that I chosen to stay sober) says, this book is here to help you find a power greater than yourself by which you can live. Just remember that power's not you. And it's a power of your understanding. AA is not a religious program at all rather it's spiritual. You got this, I believe in you.
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Hi Renee, i go to AA meetings, I've read a few of there books. Try a few different meetings they are bnot all the same. Find the one that fits you best. I also went to IOP rehab, i will say i got more out of reading Alcohol Explained by William Porter. It's easy to read and understand what alcohol does to your body and brain. I recommend it. You can do this. You are not alone, reach out anytime
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Thank you Charlie
In a very similar boat here. Keep trying to go clean but relapsing. Don’t know if any other emotions are contributing for you, but on my end depression and stress have been driving my “heck with it I’m buying something” days. At least we know we’re not alone on these apps and there’s support. Good luck we’re rooting for ya
Hi Renee, I relapsed last night and it's so hard to deal with "I did it again" I was already thinking tonight I might as well have a drink at dinner and then I will quot again. I can't believe I am thinking this way after the horrible night I had. It's such a struggle. Stay strong and I will too. Prays 
I’ve been where you are at. This site has helped me aahome group.org. This site has meetings all n Zoom 24 hours a day. There are times I pop in just to calm my head. At 5pm Central there is a really good meeting. It’s a speaker meeting and catered to those in early recovery
If you don’t try. Then don’t help your self.you need help.
Good job on 27 year- 34 years aa.
I know exactly how you feel. I do the same thing and always regret it in the morning.