I'm new to this site and I have been just observing vaguely and would like to introduce myself. My name is Melissa and I've been an addict for about 20 years trying to fight this disease we call addiction and also suffer from a serious mental illness PTSD, depression and generalized anxiety disorder, that has been debilitating and held me back most of my life. I know that my mental health has been the main reason why I use and keeps leading me back time and again, because I don't treat those core main issues. I've been in jail, institutions and have ever experienced near death experiences, lost custody of my kids lost my sister to death, my family turned their backs on me lost friends, jobs and valuable things, my love for myself and sold myself but throughout all of these things I have learned very hard valuable lessons. Mostly what not to do again. I'm currently in recovery doing outpatient treatment every week and taking my medication and I have an open mind and heart to try and do anything that will benefit myself and my recovery. The only things I'm really missing in my recovery is therapy, meetings and a network. Like I said I'm willing to do anything that is beneficial for my recovery because I think I applied a lot of energy, effort and time for my addiction, so I think I can also use this motivation and energy to my recovery. I need a sponsor and network, meetings and friends to make this work. Thanks for listening and hope someone will reach out and give me some feedback and advice. Thanks everyone and hope you all have a successful journey in your recovery and if you fall, keep getting up and never stop fighting. 
Welcome! This is a cool app to connect with others in recovery. OTOH this app is not a recovery program. There is an extremely diverse group of people that participate on here. Some are just sober curious, others may be in the early stages of addiction, and others that have experienced the full wrath of what this disease is capable of. You, like me, are running out of options. There’s no sugar coating this. I’m sure there are other options, but I strongly recommend you get involved in a 12 step program and work it to the best of your ability. Find a good women’s meeting, and get a sponsor asap. It’s time to make peace with yourself and be free from the past. You can do this.
Thank you for your feedback and advice.I strongly agree with your with your statement. And I needed to hear this.I haven't been working my recovery to the best of my abilities.I have worked steps before I have had a sponsor I have been in a specialty court docket and worked a program.I'm just not actively doing so and I think I have forgotten what it really takes to succeed in my recovery.
There are N.A. zoom meetings everyday if you were in Rhode Island, I would be your sponsor
Thank you! I will.
Yeah, I'm in Ohio.