Im not okay. My life is unmanageable. I no longer work. I no longer have healthy relationships. I continue to have seizures from alcohol withdrawal....yet I still drink. Today after my seizure I had no memory of who I was, where I was, or what I had been doing the days before. I was laying in a puddle of drool fighting for my life. I'm constantly overwhelmed with anxiety, I can't shower without having a panic attack, I can't drive without losing feeling in my limbs. Alcohol is the only thing that makes me feel comfortable but it is also the only thing killing me and making me want to die. I am afraid of death but I dont have many options. I need to be sober. I need to fight. I am afraid.
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Get to a detox and rehab. Money galore to help fund it. You’re killing yourself and sound pretty bad. Get your life back. Learn the tools to get and stay sober. Call an AA or NA hotline to get help. You’ve got alcohol poisoning. Deadly.
You need to seek medical attention immediately. Don't fight the detox symptoms alone, they can be deadly.
Easy there, your still on the right side of the green,there is hope, if you want this its work but its worth it...
I agree, get into a medical detox center. They can give you medicine to help with the seizures and the withdrawal symptoms and monitor your health while you detox. They can also help find an inpatient rehab bed for you once you are done detoxing. I did that in July and I'm in rehab now and soooooooo grateful for the detox facility. If you need help finding one near you try calling 211 that works in a lot of places. Give yourself a break and let them help you through this.
Get help ASAP!!!!!
Reading this I literally feel like I’m reading about myself. It’s sad it’s scary I’ve never been the one to want to go to a program but now is the time and I think you should do the same, maybe iop if you don’t want to go to rehab. I hope you get through this:pray:t3:
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Hello Annie!!!! You should be afraid. It is the alcohol that’s killing you. You can admit that. This is it question you need the app ask yourself an answer it truthfully to yourself. Am I an alcoholic? And answer that truthfully. That is the first step that you have to do is admit it. Alcohol takes many things away from us. You said you no longer work you no longer have a healthy relationship. And you continue with the alcohol even though you have withdrawals. That’s why I said you need to ask yourself that question. I Kelly I’m an alcoholic. And I am grateful alcoholic because I have 37 years sobriety. No I am not bragging I am just letting you know what you can get out of this if you change your life. You can get this I did it. I’m not the only one that’s made it this far I know that. And I know you can do this because you’re here asking for help. And that’s what we are here we are one big happy family here. That helps each other. So don’t be afraid to ask for help step up to the plate and take control of your life once again. Are used to be this way that you are. But today I choose not to be. One thing I might have over 13,000 days sober. But you know what this is still day one for me. Because yesterday is gone tomorrow’s not here yet but today is this is the only day that I have clean today. You can make it just as well I love life today. You will learn how to love life as well get better it’s worth it. Life is worth living today.
Cunning and baffling right. Keep up the fight though because you’re worth it!
You can and will get through this mess, its hard to trust in the process, you really have it better than a lot of people out here..you realize you have a problem, there are many that don't have that..
Welcome