I'm really sorry to keep posting all my problems here. The guy is at the bar tonight and at first was telling me how positive it is I'm doing this stuff then it took a sharp turn and he started talking the angry / depressed stuff again. We've been like this sober too and I might be starting to see this for what it really is. I'm not looking forward to seeing a drunk person tonight 
Get away from this sh7t and stay away from it.
I have no family my mom and grandparents all died around 11 yrs ago. I do work ft but one check is for car payment and other is for rent. Seems like he is nice less than he is mean.
It's a mix of codependency and narcissism. This has been 10 yrs of my life, this is not easy.
I'm going to recovery Day in a few hrs. So many people will be there with their families and I'll be alone.
Anyway I am thinking of a change. It's been tough to find a place. I do call them just so I have a back up plan.
If not for the naltrexone I probably would have drank by now.
He lost a drinking partner but so did I.
Sorry for the long reply.