I'm Sandy I relapsed again with meth.. I feel so guilty for being so weak. And not have tried harder for me n my dogs all we been through. With my anxiety n depression. My brother passing away . I can't seem to get started. I have no way go but anxiety makes me scared to leave much anyway but. I'm so tired of this. I go to counseling n we have group fews times I do on zoom if they don't come get me. . I just don't know how get started .or keep going. I'm grateful God gave me another day. But my anger n nerves my dogs, mine esp. my brother had boy dog Bailey,I'm disabled my pitbull has been my emotional support dog since Mom passed few yrs back. But he has worked my nerves n they fight so me n puppy have stay in bedroom n got him in living room but he's 2 not been fixed yet. But I called woman from humane society to help home him I'm just not able for both. But it's about broke me all the way around B4 accepted couldn't. But I'm tired of the drugs seem like need in my mind to give me energy just get few things done a day around here. It's my home place my brother n I decided to move together help each other got building he was going fix tiny home for me n passed away like day or 2 when they brought it out .I know it was meant to be that way . I just needed him so . I'm sorry . I have been so alone since Mom n people judging me cause done drugs cope it's been unreal. Esp. from so call family u couldn't pay take u get food..I want to be able to let all that go since finding God . But I keep letting him myself n my babies down. I feel worthless. Thank u for listening. God Bless
Hello I am Kim. It is a pleasure meeting you and I hear your words. It can be scary coming off meth. I would suggest talking to someone. You are so brave reaching out and I know how scary that is 
. I would like to offer some support. I am an addict, with just over a year clean. I don't pretend to have all the answers but I can always listen or just sit in silence if you like, if you're not sure what to say. I will keep you in my prayers.
Don't feel worthless...
Or ar least you shouldn't feel worthless, and you most certainly aren't weak.
You're human!!
You want to be clean and that sounds like a great start to me. Keep trying and don't give up on yourself.
We all have a "last time" we used. And maybe this is yours.
You are beautifully, masterfully, and wonderfully made. I'm sorry for the way you're feeling. Guit can be a good tool as we understand our guilt, grow away from the actions that caused that guilt, and deek forgiveness. But let's make sure we don't fall into shame. Shame is a lie that the devil uses to keep us down. Grace, mercy and love are what God offers us. I know you can put this down and leave it behind.