Im 5 days to be 30 days clean and im stuggling hard not for fent but meth . Even thou everything is coming along for me . Finely got a house my kids in my life . I got my life back but im scared my depression is going to take me out .... And the smile is so fake.. because honestly im not ok . I show that i am but really im not deep down inside . Thank so letting me share tinight
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Hang in there, depression is scary but it’s also temporary and you just helped yourself fight it, bringing it out to the surface weakens its hold.
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Keep yourself busy, distract yourself from feening meth.. it's hard I know, I've been trying myself.. I read the Bible or listen to worship music or meditate.. or I clean.. I also watch sermons.. keeps my mind from wondering.. praying for you.. god bless you
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Diana, I learned that my addiction is powerful cunning and baffling! I needed real help. Going to in person meetings daily & nightly, getting a sponsor, doing the 12 steps multiple times was the only thing that kept me sober. I tried everything and failed many times for years until I finally realized I needed real help.
It might seem like a lot to do but I know it’s the easier softer way.
I’m here if you want to talk
Be sure to stay connected to your supports or exploring adding some new ones
I'm sober for almost 6 months after 24 years of meth use/abuse. It is hard, especially in the beginning. You just need to rediscover yourself and take full advantage of NA support groups. Those do help. One day at a time. Dump all the old people and find new friends that are a step up. You can't evolve around other people who are not evolving themselves. You can over come it. I know it really is hard but it is possible.
U got this
First off, congrats on getting so close to 30 days, it’s a huge milestone. Your feelings are valid and so important to let out. Remember, one of the biggest tools in recovery is staying connected with people who get it here.