I'm struggling just to get through a minute. I'm struggling mentally and emotionally. I lost someone that was like a mom to me even though she was my Aunt. To me losing my Aunt/mom is like losing another parent so now I'm parent less. I feel so heart broken. I feel beyond lost. There's nothing in this world that can replace my mom and there's nothing to replace that huge part of my heart. I'm breaking inside and been crying off and on and barely able to sleep because all I see is my Aunt's l/mom's dead body plus I'm seeing my Dad's dead body when I close my eyes
There is nothing to replace that. Lost and heartbroken is how you are supposed to feel. Feeling is hard but it is beautiful. It means you’ve been loved and loved in return. Keep your memories precious. Hold them close. My brother died a few years ago and that fucker was my best friend. I still feel lost at times. The grief hits in waves. You have to let yourself feel but also continue to stick to your basic routine so you don’t lose yourself in grief. Just make sure all your people know how much you love them. The ones that are still here. It’s good for your heart and theirs. And talk to her. She’s still here. She is where you believe her to be. Sending you hugs🤗
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Chris, I had to really lean into my program. Morning & evening meetings daily, lots of service work, prayer and step work. This process healed me permanently.
The people that transitioned before us are in heaven and don’t want us to suffer. It’s our addict mind/ego that torture us. We can rise above it with constructive actions.
I’m here if you want to talk
There’s nothing that is going to replace her for you. I know that pain and I ran to drugs to mask it and it landed me in a place that I definitely didn’t want to be. Remember that your Aunt/Mom would want you thriving. You need to try and get up and keep yourself busy and try and remember that she would want you strong. I know that’s easier said than done but just know you are not alone in this man. Reach out at any time if you need to, on here, to people you know, to whoever. I promise you TIME DOES HEAL and it will get better brother