Im struggling to stay clean! I relapsed n ive been on a daily binge for bout a month or so! Now i have to get back to reality( which i shouldve already done long ago but i didnt) so physically i feel like total sh*t!! I know i will feel better once im over this hump but im struggling to get over it n not go use again bc i dont wanna feel this way! I have things i need to do n i just cant do them without energy!! I slept over 12 hrs yesterday n i cannot do that anymore! I have a family n kids n i need to stay clean! They need me! N i need them! I can’t have them high! Help!
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Have you thought about inpatient or intensive outpatient?
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Melisa this is going to be hard you need to take one day at a time. When you get out of bed promise yourself you will not drink that day. When you go to bed thank your higher power you did not drink that day. Repeat daily the rest of your. It gets easier. Get out to meetings to get support from others.
Melisa, “ I get drunk. We stay sober”. Find an AA/NA group/sponsor that you connect with.
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Melissa, I couldn’t quit and stay clean on my own. It took me 2 decades of battling and losing. And I considered myself a strong minded person. Actually I was a high functioning addict and had financial success until the last few years.
I finally surrendered and went to detox for 5 days. Then early morning & evening meeting 7 days a week for over a year to get control of my addictions.
You don’t have to waste a decade or two like I did and lose everyone and everything. Get serious, get help and get clean.
I’m here if you want to talk.
Melissa it sounds like you want this for yourself, you have kids and it definitely sounds like you want this for them. I’ve been struggling with heroin, fentanyl, and dope for 20 years and finally have some clean time… I had to go to prison to get it. Before something horrible like that happens to you maybe you should think about getting into a detox and even just dedicating yourself to a 30 day program or something… you are going to have to remove yourself from your environment long enough to get a clearer head and not be in the grips of your addiction in the physical realm. When it has that physical pull in you it can feel like you’ll never get free of it. It shows a lot of courage just to be reaching out like you are, keep doing so. You can do this girl!!!
Don’t beat yourself up. This is one of the toughest battles that anyone could fight through. Give yourself some grace. You’ve been getting hit every day for a month, so feeling drained is the withdrawal talking, not who you are. Crashing makes everything feel impossible, but it does settle as your system evens out.
One thing that helps a lot is keeping the next hour simple or if need be minute by minute. Distraction, letting it out like you’ve done here, opposite of addiction is connection. I firmly believe that.
Try to stay focused on today and keep checking in with us. You got this!