I'm struggling with my relationship. We survived alcohism and living

Struggling Help
#1

I'm struggling with my relationship. We survived alcohism and living in recovery.
It's just over and I'm terrified to do anything about it.
The staus quo sucks but I'm not lonely and scared which usually leads to drinking.
I'm almost at 18 months and I am ready to live. But I'm stuck in the past and afraid of the future.
Being sober has allowed me to present and aware. Both can be terrifying!!
I have to ask myself is a bad relationship better than being alone? We don't fight. We like to talk. It's just got no future because of the past.
I am beyond confused....

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#2

A bad relationship is the same as being alone. Be free, homie.

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#4

Tough one

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#5

I had one relationship in recovery and it didn't work out but I can say her and myself are better friends than lovers I believe that whatever is supposed to be in my life God will provide

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#6

I’m in something of a similar situation Steven where I don’t have the answers but you’re definitely not alone. Sometimes I want o break up but I feel guilty because of the pain and suffering I caused. I’m confused like you stated as well.

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#7

Learn to love yourself and you will never be alone :smiling_face_with_three_hearts: if it’s confusing it’s not meant for you!

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#8

Thanks for all the replies. I'm so stuck!