I'm tired of trying
I'm tired of struggling
I'm mentally exhausted
I'm not ok
I'm still clean and sober
But it's hard I'm homeless and my own family won't help me
My own mother looked me in my face and said
I hate you I never loved you I wish I would have had a abortion with you
That hurt worse than anything but she has been like that my whole life I shouldn't expect anything else from her but that still hurt
I'm literally sleeping on a park bench
I'm tired
I'm so sorry that you're struggling. I'm very thankful that you're still clean and sober. That's an accomplishment. Being homeless must be tough. Are there any resources there that can help you? A shelter maybe? What about a treatment facility? Please keep in mind that no matter what you're going through a drink or a drug will not solve anything. I'm sorry about your mom. It's going to get better. Hang in there and get to meetings. There could be someone there that can point you in the right direction. Rely on your Higher Power too. You will be in my prayers.
No I live in a tourist attraction town there's really no resources for homeless people here I'm going to try to call around to some Churches tomorrow really nothing in this town cuz it's a tourist attraction
Oh okay. I see. That's a great idea to call the churches in your area. I pray you get the help you need. The most important thing is you're staying sober.
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Bonnie, I’m sending you love, light and strength! I’ll be praying for you.
I know it’s extremely difficult for you but you can get through this.
I’ve had many friends in your situation. I suggest going to as many in person AA/NA meetings as possible. Share your struggles with the groups. Ask for help.
Many of us understand and want to help recovering addicts.
Also the Salvation Army is a great place to get in to. I’ve seen them take in recovering addicts many times.
I’m here if you want to talk