So I'm 43 days sober and was at a meeting this morning. Found out a phone number that was calling the woman I've been with for 8 years. Stupid me (cause my brain is my worst enemy) calls the guy and questioned about it. The guy is someone she works with and told her about it. Now she wants nothing to do with me cause she said I'm a jealous scumbag, why would I call. Granted my self confidence is low because of all the relapses and rehab trips over the years. I can't be alone and without her and her kids. In between meetings, being with them was keeping me sober. Now it's like what's the point
Keep pushing forward and don't give up do it for yourself to be the best version of yourself
Noticed in profile recovery dharma. I've read the refuge recovery book and used to go to temple for meditation. How'd you like it?
Matt, I had to get and stay clean for me. I had to create a new life in sobriety that I actually wanted and enjoy.
Then everything else fell into place.
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I would say you dodged a bullet.
Sorry Matt, nobody can get drunk and nobody can keep me sober!!!
Treat your illness first, always first. Then you’ll have something to give. If you’re jealous of someone, then either you have a reason or it’s all in your head. Either way, you know where the problem lies!
You can do this, but definitely not alone.
I suggest get into the middle of the herd, follow solid suggestions, and stay focused. It always comes together if we do the work!
Best of luck!!! 
Thanks my dude
I enjoyed the meeting especially the meditations