I’m a few weeks away k from six months of clean time and maybe I’m making this up but compared to when I was using, it feels like all I want is to learn or practice critical thinking. In addition recovery and work, I’m volunteering with three organizations, learning random things (currently LNG and offshore wind energy) and writing so much (in addition to the three journals i keep I’m writing an essay on the concept of society and whether religion and society exist without society).
It’s pretty cool but I’m terrified it’s going to suddenly end and all I’ll be left with is a void to fill with substances. Has anyone experienced anything like this?