The most overwhelming powerless feelings, have been weighing on my heart late at night. I become furious with tears because I can’t use or drink. I don’t want toots just all I have know for decades. Yet I sit through those feelings and they pass. I pray I get through another day
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Hang in there. Get to meetings and pick up the tool kit.
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I know those feelings too. I’m not so great at letting them pass, but I’m 20 months sober now. I’ve been thru a lot of them. It’s never easy, but somehow someway the serenity prayer, meetings, my sponsor, prayer and meditation, gratitude lists, journaling, helping others…all if this somehow gives me a chance to make the choice to choose sobriety. They said it will get better, and in my experience it has. It’s still not easy, but it’s better. Hope you feel better ❤️🩹
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Meetings I do and I have a sponsor in aa. And working steps yet some times it’s still there!!! Yet when it passes I am stronger then the night before
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20 months congrats I’m 13 months in.. I have the sponsor in aa she is so there and in it with the step work. The meetings are time valued even being in a commit is a plus to get involved with the fellowship. They do pass it’s what I do in that new space of after those feelings come is where I am grounded in gratitude
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I agree when the tears roll out the pen and paper are my new vice along with the steps. Yet still the deep breathing helps them move faster along and that new space of time I do with my actions after those moments is where I’m growing
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It helps me if I sit and remember how hard my life was when I wasn’t sober. Like my slife has improved ten fold since I changed my ways. We deserve happiness and numbing the pain does nothing except leave a hangover/cravings withdrawals and the problem still at hand🙄
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The AA BB gives specific advice for those feelings.
First work ALL the steps on them. Then, we turn our thoughts to someone we can help.
See how that works for you.
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That’s the perspective I need to keep in mind, now when you put it that way remembering where we came from and how difficult it has been without those we have lost. Then I’m thosebpowerless momments the disease doesn’t care of that! That’s when my higher power is what I pray for to bring in the light back into my heart
Hello Tasia. Remember that you can choose to use, but you've decided that it won't help you and so you choose not to. I hope you get feeling better soon; if you're making good choices then you are using power in a good way, and thoughts and feelings are often times slow to catch up.
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When we were in active addiction we were escaping all our struggles and emotions. We disconnected from the world around us, because we felt too uncomfortable to be in it. When we get sober we have to face all those thoughts and feelings with a clear mind. The best part is we don't face them alone. We have an entire community that we can turn to for help. We can only be successful in recovery if we reach out and connect with others. I am do proud of you for opening up about this and letting those emotions out. Please keep doing that and please remember to be patient with yourself. It takes a lot of time and work for us to change our way of thinking that we've been used to for practically our entire life. Keep putting the work in. Think of how far you have already come and how much you've grown. Before we would have given in to that hopeless feeling and instantly turned to drugs and alcohol. Now you have the tools to help you overcome any obstacle in your way, just make sure you keep using them.
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Feelings are my door to want to use also. But take a breath and tell yourself that your worth it. Longer your sober the less they are extreme is all I can say. Also the longer your sober the easier it is to know the root cause as to why I'm feeling this way or that way.
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