Is it bad to think that i was a bettet motivated person when i used? I got up i cleaned, i took care of my family, worked paid bills. Now all i do is lay here feeling depressed.. trade one med for another? Deal with it? Or just use and be the person i know i can be?
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Hi Kori. I don’t mean to sound like an a hole, but if all was good while using, why did you stop? There has to be a reason you wanted to get clean. It sounds to me like your addict thinking wants you to get high. Think of the reasons why you quit. My guess is those reasons are still important, but the disease is telling you otherwise. Good to talk about it first. You’re doing the right thing by sharing your thoughts. I hope others can convince you to continue your recovery path. It takes time and it’s uncomfortable…but it’s so worth it
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I feel that way a lot too. Sometimes the meds do make the depression worse (at least for me). I had to quit taking mine and find new coping skills. Sometimes it helps me to just get up and do something, then I find more motivation. Keep hanging in there, it will get different, not necessarily better, but definitely different.
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It is if you apply that motivation being sober
If you think you're better off using go on ahead and try. The positive effects will gradually fade with more use and the negative effects will pile up faster and faster. You'll find quitting next time will be even harder and he after effects will last longer. Depression is absolutely normal and is a fight all ok its own. I hope you choose recovery.
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Don't go back to killing yourself that was a false sense of hope when you where using just try and find some motivation by going to meetings and meeting recovering addicts who can help you because I'm sure it's someone going through our been through what your going through
Kori, I had depression and lack of energy in early sobriety. I also had exhilaration and anxiety. My addiction didn’t just end. I ate tons of sugar, ran 10 miles a day, worked out, slept too much, or not at all. Ups & downs like crazy but I put in the work. Went to meetings every morning and night, 12 steps multiple times and tons of service work.
Eventually I balanced out and life got easier and much better.
I believe we get what we put into our sobriety. Using again would be insane!
I hope I’m making sense to you. I’m here if you want to talk or have questions