I’ve been working hard and staying sober for the last several months. As I think, most of us know, how things get an anchor down quickly. I wound up in jail Friday night due to “public drunken “ . It is only a $100 ticket, HOWEVER! This is where the get-out-of- jail-free ends. My ex-husband also has a drinking problem that he refuses to admit to that & that’s not where I am at. I have been trying for five years over & over to get sober. Now, as wThis time, during my arrest, I had DSS come and visit me. They were very nice however, they want to spend the next 45 days supervising visitations with me and my ex-husband. I feel like I have lost everybody! I feel like this is all my fault!! I know it’s not completely me from at the bottom, my heart, but it sure feel like it now. I need support badly right now!!! I’m waking up on ridiculous times trying to figure out what to do!!!
Hi Kim I would say ease the pressure on yourself. This too will pass. Maybe even try meditation repeating that phrase as a mantra? Could have been much worse. But also remember how you feel and don't put yourself through it anymore. At least for me-once I started trying to quit drinking and realized I should not things constantly got worse if I tried to go back to it. It's like life saying sorry you can't do that anymore. Also try reading some other sobriety stories and see what others went through and came out of.
Thank you Roy❤️ I am going to try to get some rest now. My heart just wakes me up to remind me! I pray to keep this in my forefront… I so appreciate you reaching out back to me. I needed a like minded person to respond to me. YOU TRULY HELPED!!!!
Definitely don’t be hard on yourself. Specially all the progress you have done to stop cycle of drinking for 4 months. That’s no easy task. It’ll come out, this to shall pass. You’ve definitely got support here! My last go around with alcohol in 2019. Almost cost me 8.5 years in prison. The state didn’t bring charges until dec 2020. With that being said my lawyer and the state saw how hard I was working to stay sober finally. It’ll definitely show and ppl will see how good your doing. I believe in you Kim! Just keep doing what’s best for you. You can always reach out on here for anything!
Thank you!! I feel like my world is falling apart right in front of my eyes… I know from the past this is the alcohol speaking… But it is not easy right now and I don’t expect it to be. I’m just sick of the slip instead of the forward mission I’m on- the slip seems  to take everything back several steps more than I proceeded forward.