It feels like ive got no reason for holding myself

Struggling Help
#1

It feels like ive got no reason for holding myself back, that im missing out and just torturing myself. Even after two years its not any easier.

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#2

Are you working a program of any kind?
Or just white knuckling?

#3

Welcome

#4

White knuckling

#5

Hold on for the miracle. Get to a meeting and surround yourself with sober people. There are dark forces at work. Come to the light and be saved

#6

Well that makes sense then.
What I learned was that alcohol was only a symptom of a larger problem. So not drinking was the start. But if I didn’t want to be sober and miserable then I needed to work on the root causes of my drinking.

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#7

I want to escape from my own mind, feel numb so to say.

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#8

Of course, that’s why I drank/used as well. To shut off the noise in my head. The goal was oblivion.

#9

I've gone to therapy I've worked through my things but I'm still stuck with myself and I just want a break

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#10

I tried all of that as well.
The solution for me was practicing the program of Alcoholics Anonymous.
Going to meetings, getting a sponsor and working the steps.
See, therapist and so forth don’t understand like a fellow alcoholic understands. This is the difference. A.A. and the 12 steps have given me something I never had before in my life.
Serenity

#11

Someone told me there's a website where I can find the different meetings but I don't remember what it is

#12

We live in a crappie world, sober is just a state of mind. I chose to be sober a year ago. Life isn't any better I just get to feel how crappie the world is sober yippee

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#13

After 15 yrs . I sometimes rear off . But it's because I didn't work the program. Alot of learning goes with recovery. Call your sponsor, and start your steps over.. you can go online download AA, or na, and you can chat and listen to meetings hang in there it goes better one day at a time and pray to God for help and understanding of what you need to do. Margie

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#14

Just search Alcoholics Anonymous. There will be a link to meetings with locations and times

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#18

The Neurobiology of Addiction Addiction 101 in Olson on YouTube. Very informative

#19

Google " find a meeting"

#20

Maybe that's the issue maybe you need to find some kind of selfless service in your life... Try going and devoting time to helping others.. it did a world of good for me to give my time to those in need.. volunteer take the focus off of YOU and what you think you're missing out on... Find purpose in your life and some kind of centering like meditation or prayer... As always I will suggest the Bible your decision to make but it's never let me down but to each their own.. hope this helps and God bless and congrats on reaching out

#21

I wanted to let you know there is aa.org there is a meeting on there. Look for vision for you. It's a worldwide meeting and I go on there and I chair a meeting quite often and it helps me because for me some days I'm not physically able to leave my home due to my illnesses I have so that may help you and don't give up. You're worth so much more.

#24

Not missing out on anything just gotta find a good hobby something that really interests you and plunge into just like you did the other things and stay motivated and happy do what makes you happy invest in yourself you deserve it

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#25

Kim, there a million things I did to stop feeling like I’m missing out. Sky diving, surfing, jumping wave on jet skis, traveling, diving, yoga, playing guitar etc., but service is what really helped me feel purpose, gratitude and deeply connected.
I hope this helps. I’m here if you ever want to talk

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