I’ve been struggling a lot lately with staying sober. I’m so tired of the lies and shame and guilt and the effects alcohol has had on my health. I don’t know how to stop, my will isn’t strong enough. I’m not strong enough. I have recently become unemployed, the stuggles are creeping in and I am clinging to the one thing that is doing nothing but destroying my world and me. I don’t want this life anymore. I’m not sure where to go from here.
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Well you’re doing the first thing and that’s recognizing it.
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There is a clear cut path to full recovery found in the Big Book of Alcoholics Anonymous.
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I could never stop on my own either, but together WE can. You’re on the right track, it starts with asking for help
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What Mike said. And additionally, you’re talking about it. You are so close. You don’t even realize it. Together we fall apart and fail… Sometimes we die together we recover. The hardest thing for this alcoholic to get through his head was that this is a we program. I spent so many years being the man my father taught me to be. Well, let me tell you somebody he was an alcoholic. I turned out just like him an alcoholic. I’m estranged from my family and children cause I put work over everybody and everything I thought being a provider I thought being a ““ man was what I was supposed to Do. The biggest realization and aha moment came in two parts. One a guy asked me he who had quite a bit more recovery than me at the time that James what’s the craziest thing you’ve done… I started thinking and going through well I’m a combat vet and I’ve been in some firefights and I did some crazy stuff as a kid… He looked at me very angry. He said no you took a drink while completely sober, knowing what would happen… The second part was realizing that when I claimed to have done the third step my answer was given to me. I surrender to my higher power. I follow his direction. I do the steps with the Sponser. I stay busy and active in my recovery. I literally go to a meeting every day. I have six service positions with my Home Group. I go to the CSO and do a phone shift once a week. I don’t sleep a ton more than four or five hours a day. I am so active in my recovery and I’ve never been in a better place in my life. The biggest part is I’m not thinking about me. My whole goal is to be useful to other people because I never have not in almost 58 years of life. Get involved get Sponser start doing stuff for other people. I don’t care if it’s working at a soup kitchen feed line answering phones at your local AA district office whatever… it does work. I’m praying for you. Get involved.
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You took a big step right there, that is admitting you are powerless.. you can do this.. you deserve better
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So you are powerless over booze and will powerless cannot stop you drinking. The this second you start praying and giving over to a God that does have the power for taking all this negative past from you and minute by minute day by day to take away this obsession of mind to suck booze and hurt your life. Get believing now, not tomorrow right now through away all the negative and work and think about step one and 2. I promise you you can do it. Do it for love of you.
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Jess, I was where you’re at…. I finally surrendered to the program of AA. I went to AA meetings every morning and night. This helped me tremendously.
Sober and grateful for 17 years. I’m here if you want to talk or have any questions
Words are strong and carry value. Start tricking your brain by saying good things such as "I don't have a job right now, but I can taylor my resume and maybe a job will open up soon." AA helps a TON.
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Honesty for me is the foundation of my recovery! Welcome
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Hey you took the first step by acknowledging that you have a problem. I started praying and putting God first in everything that I do this helped me build up enough courage to start speaking life into me which helped a lot. I did it cold turkey I tried to attend meetings but the setting wasn't right for me. Finding a support group will help as well I believe in you and I'm here for you. I have friends that work for behavioral health facilities that can be a reference for you..
I know how you feel I got out of sober living and went to rent out a room next to my daughter and grandkids and still haven't found a job i am 6 months and some days clean and sober but it's hard having her pay my rent I hate it. The only way I stay sober is though God's good grace reading his word and spending time with my grandkids and daughter help a lot find a God church. One is called free church and it is all drug addict and alcoholics we need to stay together. You can find it on line.keep up the good work N GOD BLESS YOU
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Stop. Take a Breath. Grab pen 
and paper 
. Make a list, even if it's all over the place and seems crazy. Write 
things down for me it gets most things out of my head and I can see everything more clearly. Then Take Action on one thing at a time. I still tend to overwhelm myself with the grind of being human. Even after years of Recovery
Admitting it is the first step, with that your on a path of recovery
I know it sounds cliche, but the hardest part is admitting something needs to change. I was dangerously out of control with my escalating drug and alcohol use. Alcohol was always my drug of choice and my coping mechanism for all my problems since I was 15 years old. It took 20 years for me to admit my coping mechanism was causing more problems and only temporarily masking my pain. I had to find the positive things I had in life to focus on in order to make the changes needed to grow. Finding good impatient treatment was a game changer as well. If I could change against all odds, even when I couldn't imagine a world without alcohol. I believe you can too. Don't give up on yourself. You f***ing got this.
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Maybe try hitting meetings hard one a day if you can, back to roots, this to will pass. Play the tape forward you already know where the road goes if you're using. let's try not drinking and giving it to God. Also if you have a sponsor I'd definitely be calling her everyday if you're not already that helps too. You can do this!