I’ve been struggling a lot lately with staying sober. I’m so tired of the lies and shame and guilt and the effects alcohol has had on my health. I don’t know how to stop, my will isn’t strong enough. I’m not strong enough. I have recently become unemployed, the stuggles are creeping in and I am clinging to the one thing that is doing nothing but destroying my world and me. I don’t want this life anymore. I’m not sure where to go from here.
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Well you’re doing the first thing and that’s recognizing it.
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There is a clear cut path to full recovery found in the Big Book of Alcoholics Anonymous.
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I could never stop on my own either, but together WE can. You’re on the right track, it starts with asking for help
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What Mike said. And additionally, you’re talking about it. You are so close. You don’t even realize it. Together we fall apart and fail… Sometimes we die together we recover. The hardest thing for this alcoholic to get through his head was that this is a we program. I spent so many years being the man my father taught me to be. Well, let me tell you somebody he was an alcoholic. I turned out just like him an alcoholic. I’m estranged from my family and children cause I put work over everybody and everything I thought being a provider I thought being a ““ man was what I was supposed to Do. The biggest realization and aha moment came in two parts. One a guy asked me he who had quite a bit more recovery than me at the time that James what’s the craziest thing you’ve done… I started thinking and going through well I’m a combat vet and I’ve been in some firefights and I did some crazy stuff as a kid… He looked at me very angry. He said no you took a drink while completely sober, knowing what would happen… The second part was realizing that when I claimed to have done the third step my answer was given to me. I surrender to my higher power. I follow his direction. I do the steps with the Sponser. I stay busy and active in my recovery. I literally go to a meeting every day. I have six service positions with my Home Group. I go to the CSO and do a phone shift once a week. I don’t sleep a ton more than four or five hours a day. I am so active in my recovery and I’ve never been in a better place in my life. The biggest part is I’m not thinking about me. My whole goal is to be useful to other people because I never have not in almost 58 years of life. Get involved get Sponser start doing stuff for other people. I don’t care if it’s working at a soup kitchen feed line answering phones at your local AA district office whatever… it does work. I’m praying for you. Get involved.
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You took a big step right there, that is admitting you are powerless.. you can do this.. you deserve better
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So you are powerless over booze and will powerless cannot stop you drinking. The this second you start praying and giving over to a God that does have the power for taking all this negative past from you and minute by minute day by day to take away this obsession of mind to suck booze and hurt your life. Get believing now, not tomorrow right now through away all the negative and work and think about step one and 2. I promise you you can do it. Do it for love of you.
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