It’s so difficult, I’m the beginning of my recovery. I’m learning how to deal with new emotions, like sadness, anxiety and anger. I haven’t been able to feel any joy yet at all. I was told that my drug use was at a pivotal point in my left that the brain is growing. Basically I damaged my brain from my years of drug use that span two decades. I was told it can heal but that can take up to 3 years and that that’s why I haven’t been able to experience joy. That really upset me. I’m now 6 months and 8 days sober. I’m dealing with extremely intense urges to use drugs. Especially now with the news that It can take up to 3 years to feel any joy at all. I wish I would’ve known this when I was prescribed narcotics at a very young age, (under 18). I get so frustrated, I hate not being in control of these emotions. I’m praying that god can take this on for me, so I’m not battling it on my own. I’m having trouble contemplating using drugs again. I’m in a residential drug treatment program, however, I’m not being taught any pertinent skills here. Please pray for me, that these urges don’t become unbearable.
. He will! If you allow him full control. Prayers for you!!
Prayers! Can you possibly start taking depression medicine? I hate the fact that I on on it but it came to a point years ago that I NEEDED it and now I accept it! It did not have to do with drinking. I was truly depressed and have struggled with depression my whole life. I didn’t realize it until I was in one of the best places of my life but all I could do was cry all day long or fight back the tears when at work/around others and feel as if everyone could tell I felt like I was dying inside. I pray for your strength to continue on your sobriety 
. I can only imagine how you are feeling with that news but try to remind yourself that “it’s only 3 years max but choosing to use again could end your life at any minute or keep you feeling worse than you are now, FOREVER.” Prayers, hugs, and love 
I’m on 5 different meds for anxiety and depression and 2 for insomnia. It’s hard. But help is available. It’s not shameful. I’m also in therapy. Take whatever help you need. There’s hope!