Hey I just feel like I need to get this goofy BS off my chest Well come to find out...I finally found the courage to tell my mom that I was having a hard time and that I relapsed and she said.... Holly I've known you your whole life and that she already knew... she was just waiting for me to tell her that she loves me and that I don't have to lie 
to her about anything.... so after that I fukked up AGAIN and told her that I needed money for cigarettes so she made me get on video chat while I bought the Newport so I ordered them and she seen the guy hand them to me....but like most addicts were very sneaky so she stayed on video with me until I got home...then BAM SHE ASKED TO SEE THE PACK OPEN SO yeah obviously there was NOT ONE DANG CIGARETTE IN THE PACK so yeah we haven't talked in about 5 or 6 days and I'm seriously unsure if she is gonna talk to me again
