Ive been clean since sept 3. I have been smoking delta i stopped it as well the otherday. Im just really struggling today. I dont have any friends or family to reach out to. Im just so tired of being alone. My bf and i have been working on things but he doesn’t understand why im hurt over being alone today. He wanted to go see his family out of state so he did. His family does not like me. His family up north doesnt even know hes been hiding we never broke up. I just want to focus on healing and recovery ive got alot coming up. Im so scared. I know it will get better as long as i keep groing but it sure is lonely right now. I live in his house. So i feel homeless. Im supposed to to into drugcourt soon. I fear im going to have to turn it down because i might become homeless. I shouod not be focused on him i need to focus on my sobriety. Im so scared im so scared im so incredibly scared
Jennifer, everything is going to be okay. Just stay sober and keep working on your sobriety.
Are you working the 12 steps with a sponsor?
I agree with Danny. When they say “your sobriety comes first” it’s the ultimate truth!
Things WILL come together.
I am wishing you all the best🫶🏼
Sounds like he isn't even concerned about your wellbeing and just leaves you by yourself? If he really cared he would be there for you no matter what. Find a group for women you can talk to, If you need a friend even I'm willing to hear you out. I hope everything goes well for you Jen 
Sometimes we need to take a break from certain relationships and situations that trigger us. It’s so hard, but surround yourself with sober support that understand your circumstance, and you’ll find your way
If homelessness is keeping you with someone who doesn't respect you, it's better to rip it off like a bandaid. Find services that can help you. If he's telling his family that you're not his girlfriend, you're not his girlfriend. Trust.
I’m trying. I don’t talk to anyone from my past not even family being sober matters that much to me. Just him I don’t want it to be this way anymore. I’m going into drug court soon but I’m scared I’m going to have to turn it down. I want so badly to be able to complete the program. But I’m so scared to commit to it with my circumstances being the way they are.
Thank y’all for being here. You don’t know what it means. To me
Hang in there, Jennifer. Can you believe that at one time I threw away almost 4 years of sobriety so that I could feel like I was a part of the group I was near. It took me seven years to get back to sobriety.. That was 30 Years ago. You need to check yourself like I did and see if you really WANT to stop. Because unless you really really WANT to, it is incredibly more difficult
try to keep it in today. there's help available
Just stay focused on the task at hand your Higher Power has brought you this far I'm praying for you:pray:t6:
I totally understand the loneliness. I have been alone most of the days since I lost my only son in a car accident. Seems as if no one understands and if I may say that many don't even care. I'm really surprised that some people are so ruthless. I am hanging on to my sobriety knowing that without that I will be extremely alone. I have people in my life who say they are my friends then they leave me places knowing that I depend on them to get from point a to point b and without the agreed upon ride from them I would be stuck at a hotel I could not afford to rent another night. I do not know why I allow myself to accept an apology time after time and excuse this behavior just so I am not alone. This feels like insanity and I am very uncomfortable tonight in my own skin and extremely sad and 
. One day at a time . I don't know what is the core of this topic I need to seriously work on for any of this junk to stop happening. Thank you for listening
I myself have felt this way in early sobriety. We have to focus on the recovery process at all costs. If your feeling this way you need to reach out go to a meeting. I remember going to meetings. I didn't want to go to I had a person that always showed up and brought me. Once I started attending along with found a higher power. Attended the meetings before the meeting than the meetings after the meeting. Going for coffee just bringing like minded people into my life. Mine got better inspite of myself. What always worked for me was i started putting pen to paper. Journaling I would write how I was feeling at that point not reading it then in. A few weeks or days I would go back and read where my mind was at that time. It was at that moment I knew I had to do something about where my mind was going. I started reading the literature from the 12 step programs. I read out loud in bed one night. My significant other said oh my god they wrote a book about you. It was then I knew my addiction was in full bloom. Sober by white knuckles and being a stubborn man I wasn't going to give in. I got the sponsor did my steps attending the meetings. Started doing service work. My life changed I have 10 years of sobriety. Life is good that can all change in a blink of an eye. So when people ask how long I've been sober. I tell them I have today just a few other days that lead up to today. Just remember you're worth it. And your not alone in this.