I've been going through yet another manic depressive episode and

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I've been going through yet another manic depressive episode and I've been slipping lately. I mean I haven't relapsed on the drug's or alcohol but I am coming close to a lapse though just to escape it all. I'm not really sleeping much or at all even with all the meds I take at night is in me I close my eyes and all I see is the darkness...death,the pain,the night terrors and nightmares that feel so real. I'm going to a AA meeting in Barrie this morning and I have someone coming with me for support. I feel like sh*t but I'm some how still going despite everything I've been feeling

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#2

Try journaling. Pen and paper and start writing all the bad memories and feelings down. I've found this method very helpful in getting that out of your head.

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#3

I can relate with you Chris. I have started journaling and I find it helpful. Any thought that comes to mind I write it down. It looks messy and confusing, but it really helps slow my brain down.

I’m thankful that you were vulnerable and shared your struggles. I hope that you can find ways to combat this and pray that the universe & God and your higher power can carry you through.

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You’re still showing up even when your mind’s trying to shut everything down. STRENGTH!
I know that struggle. But going to that meeting, and letting someone come with you, is a wise choice. You’ve made it through 100% of your worst days so far. I’m proud of you.

#5

When I get in that place I journal and I go to online meeting sometimes that is the only time I can sleep.Aa has 24hr meeting on

#6

Just remember how hard you have worked for sobriety and going back is only a temporary fix. You got this. Keep pushing forward!