I've been in a really painful situation lately. I didn't want to believe things were still the same but they are 
it's not an easy thing for me to pull myself away from it either. I work ft but I really don't have the resources to make the change that is inevitably going to happen anyway, it's just hard to get a start and not know anything of where I'm going. Sometimes I feel like I've just been forgotten 
I don't want to drink but I don't want to feel what I'm feeling either. I'm probably just lying t myself, I'm good at denial
