Ive been sober nearly 6 years. Doing great, then my life blew up, i emploded. I didnt have a physical relapse, but i wonder if im having a mental one. Anyone else experience this? Its rattled me to my core.
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I have had those. What I did was take a really hard look at what happened, what am I doing and acting, and leaned on my higher power and people in my group for direction. It's a we program, so hard to do on your own. Always remember your higher power is always with and by yourside
I certainly have had moments where I couldn’t see the light at the end of the tunnel. I did have seek help outside of the program. There are a lot of good counselors or doctors out there that are familiar with addiction. They can prescribe if necessary non-addictive medication to level you out. It did help me. Prayer and helping others is one of the best ways I have found to get me out of myself
You will be in our prayers
Without a physical relapse, mental and emotional breakdowns happen and can hit just as hard. Sometimes the emotions we used to numb show up. I personally think this can be healthy. Might be letting you know there’s more work on.
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I get it, I had 6 years sober but I wasn't committed to myself and stopped working the program. Drank again for many years until my life imploded and all I could do to survive was get back into AA and seriously work the program like my life depended on it, because it did. It hasn't been easy but it's the commitment I made to myself and it's worth it everyday, even the rough ones. Happy to talk anytime. Hang in there it gets better but yea, some days you feel like you are absolutely loosing it. Go to meetings, lean on your HP, talk to trusted people, whatever it takes to get yourself right again. 
You're loved and we support you
I just got a sponsor and my very own step working guide . Read the preface as instructed​:blush: