I've been wanting to drink very bad the past couple days and I'm 81 days sober today and it's been hard been stuck in my head and my demons are fighting back stronger and I'm just loosing myself again and I don't want that because I know I'll go back to drinking
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Go to a meeting
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I'm in one as we speak ha it's just been hard it's hard to explain I've bottled my feeling my whole life and it's been hard to express my feelings and how I feel and stuff
Such a hard feeling to resist. When I’m struggling I try to think of how I will feel in the morning. How great it is to not be hung over. I listen to books (The Naked Mind) that help remind me why I made this choice. Subconsciously you feel like a drink will make you feel better but in reality it would be very short lived and not even give you relief. Alcohol increases our stress. Sending positive thoughts your way. This is such a challenging endeavor in todays alcohol positive environment.
Thank you I've been trying to stay positive busy working a lot just a lot of stress in life and self love and just don't want to be around anymore and it hurts me and scares me because I have kids and a family and I've always been that way since the last time I can remember never had self love or anything and I'm barley just getting to that point where I need to and idk where to start or how.
Sometimes when I’m feeling that way I have to intentionally change my thought to “what if it all works out?” And even though I might not “feel” it I keep pondering what if it all works out? Our bodies have a physical reaction to our anxiety of worrying about the future. It puts us in a physical fight or flight. You can help interrupt that with different thoughts, even if it seems unlikely. I’m not saying this is what you should do - but it really has worked for me - I’m only sober since June 1st so I understand the ups and downs.
Yeah I totally get that and same 81 days today this time around.
Thank you means a lot just have to much going on in my head
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Have you raised your hand and shared about it in a meeting? Do you have a sponsor and a support group? Have you read any literature? Prayed? Meditation? Gone out for coffee after the meeting?
Have you listened to the “recovery voices” on this app? They helped me when I was struggling. Verbal is my love language and I felt I had a friend that got it while listening.
You got this! I’m rooting for you!
Letting those feelings out are a big step! You're doing great!
There were times where I would hit 5 meetings a day so I wouldn’t drink. Remember, this too shall pass.
We all feel like this at some point regardless of time. I play the tape ALL THE WAY THROUGH; that helps keep my head in check. At almost 18yrs, a few weeks ago a large Jack D . was running around my head, but playing in through helped. Oh, get to as many meetings as you can! Godspeed
This too shall pass.
Congratulations on your 81 days. Keep up the fight. It gets better. Here's a little food for thought.
You need to play the scene forward. What happens if you drink? Only you can answer that. But the sense of ease and comfort that you feel from taking a drink will be very short-lived. When you wake up you will have more guilt to carry around because you will know that you accomplished nothing and now you have to start all over again.
It's called, believing the LIE; that this time, everything will be okay. But it never is, is it?
I hope that you're going to AA meetings. It sounds to me like you should be going to a meeting at least once a day for a while. The way you get past the obsession to drink is by getting a sponsor that will take you through the 12 steps.
You're only going to get out of this thing what you put into it. You should also have phone numbers available for people that you can call everyday especially when you have a desire to pick up.
I don't know what it is about that thousand pound phone. Nobody seems to know how to use it when it comes to asking for help. Especially us guys.
I've been sober a long time but I still call my sponsor every day. I have a couple of other people that I call every week and they call me sometimes too. We cover each other's back.
Let me give you something that I post quite frequently with other members of this app. It comes from the chapter entitled The Doctor's Opinion from the Big Book.
Men and women drink essentially because they like the effect produced by alcohol. The sensation is so elusive that, while they admit it is injurious, they cannot after a time differentiate the true from the false. To them, their alcoholic life seems the only normal one. They are
restless, irritable and discontented
unless they can again experience the sense of ease and comfort which comes at once by taking a few drinks—drinks which they see others taking with impunity. After they have succumbed to the desire again, as so many do, and the
phenomenon of craving
develops, they pass through the well-known stages of a spree, emerging remorseful, with a firm resolution not to drink again. This is repeated over and over, and unless this person can experience an
entire psychic change
there is very little hope of his recovery.”
This entire psychic change comes from going through the 12 steps.
Can you relate to any of this?
Go to an in person or zoom meeting use the AA meeting guide app and find a meeting practically anytime and Google AA speakers, Recovery Comedy, etc. but—don’t listen to (the voices/shitty committee/minions)Your/The Disease—it’s only goal is to get you alone and kick your keester! A man/woman takes a drink, a drink takes a drink, a drink takes a man/woman.