I've got four months and twenty one days clean from meth,but I feel like I'm not making progress anymore I'm sad and lonely all the time. I'm really no happier now than when I was using. At least I had friends than but now I'm all alone in a new town because I couldn't go back to where I was before and stay clean. I'm starting to wonder if it's even worth all the work.
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yes it is keep going i got cleqn a little over 11 months so worth it that stuff is poison i look at all my freinds that are still doing it most of tjem look badit messes with your lools body etc so keep going
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In recovery, changing people, places and things in your life can be the most important life change you can make. Find yourself a NA (Narcotics Anonymous) or AA meetings. Those are the kind of people you need in your life, and trust me when I say it's life changing. Be the person you want to attract in your life and they will come one by one.
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It is worth it and girl those people were not friends Meth was drug of choice I wish I could leave town because all the people I thought were my ride or die friend all try to call me a snitch and try to get a hold of me to get high still they try to reel me in they are not your friend I have months and 12 days clean and by the Grace of God I'm able to say no still and some days like today it's a struggle because all I could think about is if only I had a few of my tweaker friends come help me I would b3 done but honestly half of my things would gone or broke and I probably wouldn't be getting ready to celebrate 6 months of bn sober in a couple weeks because I know i would probably release and throw it all away for nothing So please do yourself a favor and know that changing your surroundings and people really does help if you need a friend I will be your you can message me and I will send you my number
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It's always worth it. You're mourning the death of your old self. Allow yourself to mourn that loss. Feel all the feelings. You have all that power already inside of you. And I commend you for moving but don't focus on having no friends. Maybe that's what you need right now. To trust in yourself. Having a community like this helps a lot. You are what matter now. Not other people. Don't ever feel alone. There are more people in your corner than you think. Hanging in there and take it day to day. You got this 
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Rosemary, you’re definitely not alone. I went through a real dark time in my early sobriety. Loneliness, depression, despair, anger, sadness, fear and suicidal thoughts. I was a chronic relapser and it only got worse.
But I promise you that you will get through this and you will be happy again. You will laugh again and love again. If you stay absolutely clean. The great news is that you will never have to feel like you are now again. It’s your choice to lean into the arms of the programs of NA/CA/AA and the sober community. We have been where you are and understand. We want to help.
I’m here if you want to talk
Just sent you a friend request
Join Crystal Meth Anonymous and get a sponsor. I have ment so many new people in that group that know me know what I have been through cause they have been there themselves.
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Hang in there, you're worth it....
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Don't forget they say that only 2% of the people that are addicted to methamphetamine overcome the addiction. I'm here since February 14th 2024. Before that I struggled numerous times. Keep giving it to God, or your higher power however way you fit. Keep reaching out. Don't be so hard on yourself look how far you've come
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@rosemary391937 take heed from everyone who has posted before me. They know what they're talking about. They're all miracles who have recovered from that addiction.
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I remember feeling the EXACT same way. I told my grandpa that at least when I was using I had the illusion was having fun, now I know I'm not. And he told me it would get better. I'm 6 years sober now and I can tell you it does get better. It doesn't happen overnight, and for me it didn't happen in a couple of years. It took a long time to rebuild my life. It DOES get better though. And now I have a relationship with my children again, I'm about to marry the man of my dreams, and I have a great family of people who refuse to let me give up. You will get there. Don't give up. Nothing worth fighting for comes easy. Just remember you have all of us on here if you need anything. And you can reach out to me if needed. Don't give up. You've already come too far.
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Do you have any hobbies?
It is so worth it.
Mentally it has helped me to grow.
Daily journaling can help. Take up a new hobby, exercise, class, self-wellness.
We have our bad days, but I believe you can get through this!!
Hang in there. 
I can relate to a lot of what you are saying about the sad and loneliness. Today is my first 60 days in 35 years I have been 100% sober from everything. I have a lot of really horrible days, but every day I get through that I haven’t used and I didn’t drink is another day worth it. Each day my body gets stronger and my mind gets more clear and slowly, but surely, I recognize who was a friend and who was not. I spent 7 years not trying. 28 years of trying, and failing. It’s our time to win for us and for anyone who might be left in our lives who still love us because they deserve to see us well too. Just survive today. Let’s worry about being happy tomorrow, tomorrow. I know you can do it.
Owe it’s worth it Rosemary! 2023 December 20 I got clean after couple year stent. I thought only about getting clean and yes my good sober friends were back home and I was new here. My wife left found out using and kids went to Canada, yes no one hear but my mission was get clean get on feet. Stayed close to god and I was lonely but was ok cause people I let down figured I deserved to be alone awhile while got myself straight. Thing is it’s comfy and easy to go back but keep at it the loneliness fades, is it worth it questions fade, feeling better about self improves, you get better and everything else will feel better…
Rosemary, you got this. I will be sober 6 yrs this coming Saturday. Yes, you will feel lonely and bad about things. It's your mind and body still detoxing.
I'm sure you're stronger than your cravings.
After 6 years, I still feel lonely, but I'm working on finding things to take my mind off of drinking.
Reach out, talk to friends, or whatever you're comfortable with doing.
Don't do what I did and cut yourself off from people who care.
Honey, you got this. I'm proud of you for not giving up.