I've realized that I've been in an extremely toxic marriage for 20 years. My addiction ties to my abuse. The cycle seems endless. I am choosing to put my foot down. Boyyy did that cause disruption. I'm going to go cold turkey. I'm facing these demons. One bite at a time
You don't have to face those demons alone. You have a community of support here. I can relate as setting boundaries will cause disruption in many relationships with friends&love ones. Continue reached out for help and we share the struggle🙏
It sounds like you're determined and when you're determined, nothing is impossible. Recovery becomes possible! You got this!
I believe in you
Well, remember, you don't have to do this alone?That's what fellowship's about. I would tell you, maybe find you a meeting and a sponsor
And start doing some 12 step work, that's what I did. And it's working.
And it wouldn't hurt to pray a little
I lived the same way for 20 years… mental and physical abuse. I realized I wasn’t giving my daughter much of a model. I never wanted her to put up with what she saw from me. I left, but the drinking continued. I’m now 7 months sober and couldn’t be better. This has been a long process but I keep going. Stay in touch with people who understand and love you. Like everyone here does.
You sound like you have a great attitude towards kicking the habit. Just stay humble and don't get to over confident. I have many times and learned the hard way, I can't handle narcotics or alcohol.
Way to go, One day at a time, you'll get through this​:muscle:t6:

@shannon426200 well said. This will probably be one of the best breakups that you will ever go through. If it leads to divorce then so be it. You'll be happy in the long run. Despite how ugly it may be, the end results are priceless.