10 days in the books!! While it is nice to feel human again, the crushing weight of having no mental escape looms large. Being a widower father of 2 with a full time job and zero support makes life a blur sometimes. Barely any social life at all…..just work, cook, clean, sleep, repeat. Drinks after work was just my little escape while I did what needed to be done. Until the laundry started to pile up, the dinners became pre-packaged, dishes filled the sink and, worst of all, burning vacation time just to fight the hangovers instead of planning something fun with the kids. I can’t live my life and I can’t love correctly with that kind of selfishness. 
I’ve got to let you go now…… for good. We had a nice run. Try not to take it too hard.
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You're awesome, realizing that. And you're a hero taking care of two little ones on your own.
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David makes a great point. All this chest pounding I hear in some meetings about being manly and tough, jail, fights, women, etc. It’s all BS. A real man takes care of his family. Is there when they need him and is a good provider and protecter.
Good for you. Look after those little ones and don’t let alcohol rob them of their father.
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Your kids need you sober. Stay strong with God
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I appreciate you guys. Thank you for the kind words. It is a blessing to still have the opportunity to choose the right path for myself and my kids. We all know how quickly things can get dark with this disease. Much love and luck to you all 🫡
Super proud of you brother 
❤🩹
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Mad respect to you stepping up to the Sober Plate n declaring yourself ready to take on Life without the deadly haze! It is the best decision you will ever make n the best gift to your kids. A Sober responsible dad! Super proud of ya but hold fast to One Day at a Time! Its a magic formula. Best wishes n major props! Sky:hibiscus:
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Thank you! It’s really nice to have a supportive environment of people who get it. It really does help. My inbox is open to any and everyone who may need a chat or some supportive words. I am aware of what takes and where even one drink will lead me. One = 20 
Just have to keep playing the tape……
Surrender to our old life. That is the key of living a new life. Happy joyous and free.
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I never thought I'd have fun again after getting sober but that's a myth. I had to relearn how to do things sober tho. That glass in my hand was my security blanket. Go easy on yourself, be kind and treat yourself well! Reading the stories in the Big Book was helpful for me. Highly recommended AA at least in the beginning