A couple of days ago I posted that I was 2 years sober. I was so happy.
I’m still sober. But I’m alone and traveling for work. I went to Whole Foods and grabbed a sparkling cider and I saw their beer and wine. I’ve been to liquor stores, walked down the aisles at the grocery store, and even bought liquor as gifts for friends.
But today. I don’t know what happened but today it really really hurt.
I had a not so great work day. That coupled with some really harsh realities about my family made me drop to the floor of my hotel room and now I can’t stop crying.
I know healing and sobriety are just not linear but I just wish the season didn’t hurt so much.
Sorry for the rant. I just needed to talk to people that understood. My wife tries so hard, my friends are so supportive. I’m so so fortunate but I just…hurt.