Ever since Christmas it’s been one thing after another, so let me start b/c tbh I have no where else to turn to but public 
Christmas Day- ex accused my dad of looking at me and that he must of done something to me when I was younger
Tuesday after Christmas- in doctor office due to having high fevers and throwing up all to find out Wednesday I have diverticulitis ,
Thursday that week my ex punched me in the head 2 b/c I asked him to get out of my truck and he wouldn’t then he spit on me I thought and so I spit back and then he hit me, police were called cuz it happened at the mall have a forever scar from that dude, once I was able to leave I then later crashed my truck cuz I couldn’t see due to the blood in my eye, now fast forward to New Year’s Eve Saturday ex went to jail, his sister bails him out
Following week- I get a call from the state medical staff, need to have blood work done to see if the test they got wrong a year ago is now positive for hepatitis C, so I get in have the work done and low and behold I have hepatitis C, found that out follow Saturday after new years Eve while my daughter was having her play, talk about hard to hold myself together, then I went home lost it, wanted to use so bad but didn’t know anyone in that life anymore, thank god though, so I cried and cried and cried, finally saw my doctor again but while we are now figuring treatment out in the last 2 1/2-3 weeks since I found out about my health, my father has been hospitalized, my bunny died, and my grandmother just passed last week too. I just don’t know what more I can take before I really loose it, I finally blocked my ex today, I feel that was a big first step but now I gotta clear my sadness because this just isn’t me, I’m tired of feeling sad and down and out.
That’s a lot to happen to one person in a short amount of time. Thanks for being brave enough to share here. First of all you never deserved to be hit by anyone and I am sorry that happened. Next I am glad your going to the doctor to determine best course of care. Hang in there, proud of you for blocking your bf that’s got to be painful. Be he sounds like a loose cannon and that’s no way to live. My recommendation is to find a good AA group that you can connect with others and get emotional support. I am trying to do just that myself. Also attending a bible study at my local church. Take time to meditate daily to help calm your mind and to discover what your feeling through all this chaos. One day at a time. Be blessed.
Hey, hang in there. That's definitely a lot for one person to handle.
Skip church, go right to an AA meeting, find a woman's AA meeting. The women there will take care of you, they are very supportive of each other in AA.
Don't trip on Hep C. It's curable now and much better cure than it used to be. Stay focused on not making things worse. Stay away from your ex, he sounds like a shïtbag.
Hang in there.
It’s a matter of perspective…things are looking better. You know what’s wrong with you and can take steps to get better (we love steps), you are going to stay away from the EX, don’t drink and go to meetings! Grief, sucks but you are CLEARLY STRONG. I’m not blowing wind up your skirt, just saying YOU GOT THIS
I’ll follow up Eileen and Taylor’s posts with similar comments. You are where you are today. You’re sober. You have taken a big step to start living in the solution!! Every time your mind starts obsessing about the past, take a deep breath and pause. Say the serenity prayer. Remember you’re sober and have the power to choose to live in the solution. I’m a meeting person myself, so I like Taylor’s suggestions of women’s meetings.
Thank you all, I started going to an online meeting, and I’m just taking one day at a time and doing lots of affirmations. It’s just rough but this too shall pass!!