That’s a BIG DEAL! Congrats! You can do this!!
Angelina, congrats! Your addictive brain is still very much poisoned from your using…your mood swings and roller coaster emotions will settle in time….i know very well your feelings seem like a permanent state….THEY ARE NOT! They will become more balanced in time….go to more meetings work the steps and most important get a GOOD sponsor! …Keith Kayle
I’m struggling to find a sponsor 
Pick someone you can relate to. And someone who has more than 5 years of continuous sobriety…..if none can be found , increase your distance to meetings…(female only) just find one . Im alive today because of good sponsorship! Keith Kayle
Keep your head up and be the best you can be every day🙏
I so love
you ! N
Keep going to regular meetings you'll make new friends soon get a home group a female sponsor if that doesn't work get another one
Oh that’s the first thing you need to realize that you’re not alone and I would like to be your friend if you’re interested