Just hoping to find some help here. I just want to quit as I know it’s affecting me physically and I am not my best self. I have a great career and have a great family but booze is dragging me down, it just sucks the life out of you
Sean, sounds like you are not enjoying the results of drinking. You came to the right place. Good to get peer support in making healthier choices for yourself. You deserve to feel better.
Unable to tell from your message what you may find helpful. Meetings online or in person?
My error in past has been to get sober alone and not build community. You could try different groups until you connect. Wish you peace and healing. Remember- you are not alone.
Thank you Patti. I do tend to try and do this by myself but am now recognizing the need for others. I live in a small town and local AA meetings are not for me I feel. I like the idea of online community and look forward to exploring here. Any direction is appreciated!
Alcohol is the only drug that you have to apologize for not using…. Hang in there Sean…. I’m hoping to get some good support online as well.
Big step coming on here Sean and putting this out there so good for you for that. People places and things very important in the beginning. if you continue to hang out with the same people in the same places doing the same things, it will be very difficult to make a change. What you are considering is an incredible awakening with all kinds of newness. Recovery is an active process that occurs daily in life and without going through a formal recovery program, and learning many of the skills, I don’t think I would have achieved these eight years I’ve got behind me. You deserve to be happy. 
Remember alcohol is a depressant and a Nuerotoxin. Before it gets better unfortunately it has to play out. To me the first step was acceptance and then ultimate surrender which sounds like you are close… I wish you the best. And stay strong!!
Be sober curious. Theres a reason we say one day at a time. Dont drink today you can drink tomorrow. Try it. Maybe you get a week. Or a month. We are here for you. It's not easy and it's not dun right away. I'm still in early recovery i had a slip up. BUT I'm back and determined and excited again. I was mad for days for my slip up. I am choosing not to drink today. Theres always tomorrow. Tomorrow I want to wake up and grind or rest and Wednesday I want to have a great day at work. Maybe you can take time off I dunno. Soemtimes its needed intially.
Hey Sean, I had a brother named Sean and I lost him to drugs and alcohol? I also had a great career and I'm blessed to still have my family? Only because I got the right help that I needed? I went to rehab and I've been clean for two months and I'm slowly getting things back. It's good that you are aware of your problem? Don't let it get the better of you,seize the moment and God bless you!
I live in a small town (2k) and felt the same, so I didn’t go for 6 moths. I was sober, but miserable. I’m not an AA purist. I take what works and leave the rest, but the fellowship is all important (at least for me). I know many people who drive a half hour plus to go to meetings outside of their small towns where they feel more comfortable, maybe give that a try.
It does suck the life out of me as well. Tough thing is that at first you feel worse and do not have it as a crutch. Once I got over the hump and started physically feeling better it became enjoyable
Thanks Emily. That’s super helpful.
Yeah I’ve thought of that. It would be about an hour drive but I guess I could do it. Thank you Skot
Hang in there. There is lots of support here to get you started. It starts with the first day.