Just need someone to talk to that I can be open and honest with and not feel like a total piece of dirt.
Well you’re in the right place!! We all have one thing in common!! Some kind of addiction.
Definitely in the right place, Kathleen.
Always here to talk if you need someone to open up to and not feel judged.
That is such an important thing to have - someone who will listen and not judge you. I am lucky to have met that person in my AA sponsor. I told him every shameful thing I was holding onto about my drinking years and even my early sober years and he said, “I can relate.” Feel free to message me if you think you can trust me to listen without judgement. Otherwise, I hope you find someone who can listen and help ease your feelings of shame.
If you need to talk, reach out. It is a journey, but you don't have to do it alone. I just got on here, but I am willing to talk things out with you.
Sorry you are feeling this way. There are some great ladies on here…may you find one that you can share everything with 
It’s hard believe me I know I couldn’t even love myself in my addiction but everyday I learn more by listening or even hearing people taking the time to write these comments they care I Care the mistakes are made there is nothing to do but move on and it’s starts with YOU and It starts TODAY it’s never to late as long as you’re still breathing remember that
Been there