Just need to stop drinking.
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You have the power of choice and absolutely can stop drinking. You chose to drink. You can also choose not to.
I pray for you buddy. It was a very difficult thing to stop habits that had been perpetuated through years of hiding sadness and abuse. My story required divine intervention. Now that I know why they call alcohol "spirits" I'll never go back to drinking (unless, perhaps, I fermented it myself and knew what sort of intentions and energy I was pouring into it. I am a firm believer in self control and what intentions are set into the things we pour our energy into.) This is a very advanced take on spiritually and where I am currently in my journey. It took a longgg time to get here though.
It all starts with a choice, a decision to choose yourself over the repeat cycle of sadness and misery. Positive thinking yields positive results!
Want to stop drinking?
I wanted to learn how to like a gentleman, not get black out drunk, nor be an angry drunk, nor have the terrible hangovers, I found more.
I could not stop based on willpower. I have a ton of willpower I thought. My resolution is strong! I quit smoking cold turkey! This has got to be easy.
In The Book it talks about an alcoholic like me. I'd only drink beer, I'd make an oath and swear to my, now ex, wife I'd stop, only drink on weekends, swear to only have 2 drinks at the most, and the list could go on.
I went to an AA meeting in another city hoping to not get caught by anyone I knew, I was told to keep coming back. I entered treatment and there was at least one condition to graduate, together a sponsor, so I got one.
I was brought into the fold of a home group, men that thought and acted like me. Men who wanted to drink like gentlemen and could not on sheer willpower. I was at home.
These men taught simple steps to a man who could make, making a bowl of cereal complicated. I learned to be honest, first with myself, and then with others.
I then learned that a power greater than myself, any power I wanted and wanted to name or not name, was the only one that could keep me from picking up a drink. I am not strong enough. All I have to do is ask this higher power.
So I did, each morning when waking and night thanking it. I do it over and over. And in funky situations I ask immediately and not wait till night or the next morning. It works when I work it.
My hope for you is that you have the gift of desperation so bad that you'll be brave and try something new, outside the comfort zone and weird. Countless others have gotten and stayed sober doing the deed.
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Next frontier in Tuckahoe they are awesome
We are here for you. Recovery is possible. Trust the process and take it step-by-step.
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Reaching out on this app has always helped finding people who are supportive is a good way to start with meetings just tell yourself that’s it and surround yourself with people in the program you can do this 
Pray to your higher power who is always near in times of suffering. Make a meeting. It works when you work it sober. Sending prayers.