Why can’t I stay sober? I was successfully sober for almost a year. I did all 12 steps, I went to daily meetings, I had a commitment... But in September I started slowly drinking in secret and it snowballed. By last weekend I was 24/7 drinking again. I’m so disappointed and embarrassed. I can’t stop crying and puking today. This sucks.
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Before you started drinking again where you still going to meetings ?
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What can you do differently this time?
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I was, but I decreased the amount from 4 a week to maybe 2. I slowly could feel that I was losing my connection with my higher power. I plan to pray a lot more and go to more meetings.
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You can do it, just have to make up your mind for that and you’d achieve it.
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Since you asked the question, I would say you forgot the first step.
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I relapsed in 2016 after close to two years of sobriety-it took me six additional years to get out of that awful cycle…yet again.
Realities became worse and worse-until I had had enough on January 18, 2022.
Still sober while not complacent.
Remember how disappointed you feel.
I was disgusted with myself.
If I go back to that h-ll, I am worried that I will die from self-loathing quite frankly.
Alcohol is an a-hole liar, a thief - that will take every last good, good thing available in this very short time on the planet.
Don’t let this effer that is alcohol steal your life and the joy you deserve from you.
You can do this and I will not drink with you tonight!
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Thank you for these words. I pray that I can get back on track again and that it will stick. Alcohol is cunning, powerful and baffling! I am feeling better every hour and went to a meeting this afternoon. 
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I was too uncomfortable with sponsoring. Even though my sponsor thought I was ready. Maybe this time I will try sponsoring once I’ve got some more time. Thank you for that insight!
It’s ok. Tomorrow again!!!
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If you did once you surly can do it again. Do be so hard on yourself, it the nature of the insidious beast.
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The most important thing is that you’re starting over.
I nearly had 8 months ( a few months ago) and I relapsed many times after that. I’m back on day 7.
Try not to be hard on yourself!
I know it’s upsetting.
You can always message me if you need or want to talk.
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I'm so happy for you
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Hang in there Keisha. You had 10 months so you know you can do it again. Meu e try to find and defeat the reason you started again. Sorry you're feeling so bad; just learn from this and build back up. We aren't perfect, we're humans and we can learn. You can totally nail this down and life a rewarding sober life!
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It’s ok you got back up again. I did the very same thing after 10 months. I have 9 months again and you will too! 
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My first year I went to no less than 10 meetings a week
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Welcome back
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