Outcasting my line in a sea of regret makes it hard to forget all the time that I let slip away like a silo spilling grain from a fractured foundation. building up my frustration with the spider web seams deception and pride crippling our lives forever trapped inside perception is on tells of what everybody sells. hypervigilance is clung to like the final rung out of my despair dive forever deeper into a conscious effort to pick apart motives. becoming so natural that inaction is a symptom that limits my reach and comfortability to form a connection or step outside of the shell when life's too hard to tell what is heading for me. Trying so desperately to protect myself from humiliation and being ostracized that I live a hollow life with no value or substance worthy of protecting. Living in a shadow of my own existence doomed to forever maintain a humiliated life and ostracize myself from being human. So I ask myself to gain the willingness to go through the pain because without pain there is no value in comfort except for complacency with no pain there is no growth and at least when it is externally enacted I have a voice to use to change their behavior.
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Amen! I thought I was reading lyrics from a metal song. How loquacious!
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Thank you at first it was a poem and then it fell off
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