Just wanted to say Hi. I have 12 days w/Out using.
Been going well. However, my boy friend dumped me the day before Xmas. My kids have disowned me. And it’s just been a terrible holiday. I am filled w so much anxiety. All I could think about it popping a pill to help ease my pounding heart. Feels so broken. I feel so worthless. Hate this insane disease.
Hope everyone is holding onto today, staying out of yesterday and still has hope that life gets better.
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Hi, how has it gone? I hope you made it.
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Hey Skot,
Well I’m ok. And I’m not. I want to use so bad. I got my pre-sentence report. I got a OWI back in November. Hadn’t had a issue but relapsed after 30uts sober. Anyway, fines, probation - 2yrs, 2 meetings. Per week. And I can be tested at anytime while on probation. No
Biggie. I should pay for my offense. However my 23 yr old wrote a dramatic letter to the judge saying that I was a perfect Mom all her life and this relapse scares her and she thinks I need to go to jail. Idk, if that had a huge affect or not. But it hurt. So much of it wasn’t even accurate. She is embarrassed and is hurt. Understandable. But they are giving me 15 days. No, not going to kill me however. It will not allow me to start college this semester. Worked hard to get in. Scholarship is approved. Been seeing a therapist since this happened. Being treated for withdrawals and that is something I don’t know if they will let me have. Just frustrated. I feel like Im venting and not asking how I r?! I’m just hurting and angry and scared.
Hi Skot,
I made it. Just wanted u to know. How r u doing? Well? I hope so. Blessings. Marsh