Keep going out to eat with someone that does not love me back. I stare at her with romantic eyes, while hers are bland. Why do I keep torturing myself?
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Yes, but at first I was helping her with her sadness. Now her sadness has become mine. It has affected me like a virus. I cannot shake it.
I kno, but my mind juss will not let her go. She has become a lust of mine. It went from being friends to a burning desire. I want her so bad that it’s painful. I want to help her so bad but she doesn’t want my help. I want the emotions to juss stop.
She gets help. I kinda want to push her away. She does not love me like I love her. All she wants is social support, while I want romantic support. She’s taking me for granted and I hate that I’m always there.
I completely understand, I’ve been on the ups and downs for months now. She was my drinking buddy. I pushed away the alcohol cause I thought it’s what was making me feel this way for her. Now the struggle for sobriety is only exasperated by her presence. I’m trying so hard to step away but she keeps dragging me back in. I’m sorry, I’m juss lost rn
I severely do want my sanity back tho
You are forgetting something very important…you have a choice! Your mind is tricking you and telling you that your stuck and don’t have a choice. Think about this…you are subconsciously making a choice. You’re making the choice to nothing and just live in the problem. Take your power back. Be aware of that doing nothing is a choice you are making. Acknowledge this fact, and then make a choice to get yourself out of this situation. It’s not easy because you are constantly want to go back to your old way of thinking…poor me I’m stuck. Constantly remind yourself that you do have a choice
Ye, for some reason I keep picking her over being lonely. It’s like I can’t smile without her presence. Unconscious I’m a true addict. Love is no different then tobacco or cocaine in your brains aspect.
It depends on if you're okay being friends. You're in different places romantically, so for your own sanity you have to either let go of your romantic feelings and accept being a platonic friends or move on. It's an unfortunate fact that sometimes the people we want dont want us back. It's not reflective on you, it's just hard to find romantic compatibility.
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I just need to drop her, but it’s so hard because she contempt with our friendship and I don’t like being alone. At first I thought it was all my fault, that I wasn’t good enough, but now I’m realizing that it’s just not meant to be.