Even tho it was rocky as a child. He was doing the best he knew how. He loved me and I love him. I need to be proactive now that he’s struggling with health. I need to let him know it’s ok and I forgive him. Grateful for all the time spent with me in sports and countless hours in basment on drums with him on guitar, singing to Neil Y & Crazy Horse.
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Good ole dad lol. My relationship with my father hasn’t ever been easy. My dad is, and has been far from perfect. I too, have been far from perfect. My alcoholic/addict brain will zoom in on all the negative, and cause me to feel resentment if I don’t do something about it. As you stated so nicely, he’s doing the best he can. He loves me and I love him. Recovery has helped me a lot with this relationship. I can zoom out and see the big picture. I see the good now. It’s something I’m always working on. I can get triggered at any moment, and it’s up to me to consciously choose how I’m going to feel about it, rather than falling into autopilot and being controlled by my old thought patterns. Yeah, it’s easier now that he’s older