Last night was such a struggle! I stayed away for 4 days and then something bad happens & I always convince myself that I can just have one drink and that always fails for me every single time! I just don’t understand myself and feel like a failure with alcohol!
It takes time. And you have to really want to get sober. Not 99 percent, but 100 percent. All in!
Nicole, I told myself that on October 24. November 3 I made the decision it will never happen and chose sobriety. It’s not easy but wow has life improved 🪷
Thank you! I am going to restart today and go to meetings! The gym really helps!
Yes! It’s a journey! I need to nail that into my brain!
Oh father alcohol has beaten better and stronger men than I. It’s the great disrespecter! So don’t feel like a failure. Just get smart and go to AA, get sponsored, do the 12 steps multiple times.
I wasted decades trying to beat alcohol on my own. Only to lose everything & everyone every time!
You have a choice to be smart or not. Smart people learn from other people’s mistakes and successes.
I’m here if you want to talk
You may need some detox time and go from there.
We all stumble and sometimes we fall far. This is not failure. This is learning. Reflect on those thoughts that convinced you that you could have 1 and reflect on things you can do in the future to recognize the triggers. I often will splash cold water on my face to clear my mind and then do a minimum 5 pros and 5 cons list of having a drink. It's hard to live in the moment. I also made 4 days and then had a drink that set me right back to where I was. After 4 days the brain freaks out from the chemical Imbalance. After 10 days emotions become hectic. After 21 days we start to think clearly. But for today take it one moment at a time. Not the past not the future the here and now.
I’m scared of detox. I don’t know what to expect.
Thank you for your encouraging post! This is all very true! It’s really a journey and I am trying to do my best one day at a time and just remain SOBER 