Leaning into my emotions today. Medical issues with family members trigger me as my dad died at 56 due to complications from alcohol abuse. My mom also an alcoholic hated him towards the end and would say it all the time. She was emotionally abusive when I was young and saying it here is therapeutic for me even though I get a funny feeling in my stomach over it. I've limited contact as much as possible with her to avoid going down that path. We had to talk today because her dad my grandpa is in the hospital and not doing well. I chose to stay sober today when I know both things trigger me to drink to 'let my shoulders down' or relax. Drinking is a way to run away from how you feel when our feelings are what makes us special and who we are.
