Learning how to accept change and create boundaries has been one of the toughest journeys I’ve had to make in my life in my recovery. I have lost so much during the time of the four years that I have been in recovery that includes family friends sometimes I have to send along. Nobody understands my recovery walk or they understand and they’d rather not deal with me so I spend a lot of time alone with that being said because of the boundaries that I have been placed for my life in my recovery and they don’t seem to understand why I am so protective over my life because that was a time when I realize that I wasn’t going to make it if I stayed in the streets, I would die out here and nobody would give a care about my name or a headstone for my grave because of the weight that I decided to live my life so when I started making changes and I began to set those boundaries that’s when I lost complete control over everyone in my past because they weren’t ready to change. They didn’t want to accept that. I had changed so walking away became one of my greatest attributes to my recovery. I have learned that I don’t need people like I need air. I have learned that God waking me up on a daily basis and I’m not craving dope and I’m not hurting anyone and I’m not hiding from anyone. I have learned that my hand in my mouth contribute so much to my story and to the people I hang around I have learned that I am worth living. I have learned that I am worth succeeding. I’ve learned that even though the walk may be lonely, it’s worth the loneliness. I have learned that if I place God first then everything in my life will work out just fine. Every day of my life is not a good day but a dang show ain’t the worst day because I’m not trailing up behind somebody to make phone calls with to make sure they’re coming through to get high or that bringing a product through that I need to get high. I’m not blowing up phones every five minutes and I’m not waiting for someone to show up at my door. I learned that I don’t have to have friends and associates on this walk as long as I put God first this walk this journey is all worth living. I have lost so many friends along the way who thought it was OK to just go out one more time and that one more time cost them their lives and I’ve learned that I don’t want to be a statistic. I want my friends and family to know that I am an Overcomer I’m able to stand even on days when I can’t when tears are too much and it’s hard to breathe on days when it feels like something is sitting on my chest and I can’t catch my air. I’m strong. I’m a warrior. I’m a soldier because I do this every single day even with tears in my eyes, I lay down my life for recovery because I know that going out can cost me everything, including the breath in my body. I sit alone almost days and I wonder what my friends and everybody else is doing, but then I think about if I was there, I know what we were doing and that’s simply existing in life and when you get tired of existing and walking around in a black hole of the abyss, and you pray for sunshine, you pray for Light to come in and heal your soul. That’s when you know that God has a plan for your life and you reach out and you grab it and you hang on with everything in you but you allow God to be at the forefront so you don’t fail that’s all I have for you tonight guys thank you guys so much for being on this journey with me and allowing me to tell my story to you that’s what heals my soul. That’s what allows me to get up every day and raise my head and you guys showing me that I am not alone on this walk has been my greatest walk ever thank you guys if anybody in my site that I would post these random things about recovery want or need a mighty to talk to I am right here inbox me and if you have my number use it let’s do this thing together, I’m willing to save somebody else because somebody wants saved me
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Love everything u wrote and yeah everything u said was the truth so happy u know ur worth and that one last time could be ur last breathe u know what’s up! Happy ur clean now and doing the work god bless u 
God bless amen
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I agree that boundaries are hard to make until one sees the outcome of
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