Right now, I feel like I didn't fudging ask to be here! I've done what I feel is soooooo much change. I don't even know who I am. However, if anything, it's a bad person; that's really what I am, and I am very alone in my mind and struggle...fudge booze but right now, fudge it all.. language . Lol
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One day at a time brother. Clarity is coming. Give it time
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Thanks man, the sobriety isn't too hard but the mental anguish and feelings. I feel like I did when I was an unwanted little kid.
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I think the hardest part is to figure out who we are. When you battle for so long you do lose yourself, for me it was alcohol for ten years straight. So I read books now, taking the regular days little by little, take walks, meditate, yoga and just breathe. Find things that can calm your mind, every day is a new day. Let go, let God! Every negative thing, flush it with 5 positive affirmations. I believe in you.
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Thank you! That's helpful, I need to give myself more time, but I also feel like a leper or outcast. Including the loathe of myself. Often people make you feel like you're always having a pity party, so I just keep to myself. It's how I got through my childhood.
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Wow! I didn’t even think about that until I read your post. That’s a really good description.
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Remember sobriety isn’t about Just staying clean it is about doing the steps and actually healing ourselves through the power of God at our side
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Hey man, some days life hurts but I'm glad you're here. I bet if you find a therapist who clicks with you then you can tackle these things and find more joy in life. Vulnerability is a key component, thanks for opening up here.
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Sometimes easier said than done you know
Thanks man! I do have a therapist but some days it just seems to pile up on you and you know some days you feel like you're on top of the world and then you can get knocked down
For sure, been there. I've been trying to even the ups and downs lately and focus on contentment and commitment to growth in action, and it's been very helpful for me.
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Absolutely it’s a lifelong fight. As someone who struggles with depression and feelings of inadequacy. I still struggle, even though I’ve learned to pretty much live in the moment, and knowing that I am loved by God so what anybody else thinks doesn’t matter.
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Yeah! Ride it out is right! Like a killer bucking bronco! Sometimes I get real close to giving up, but I've made it another fudging day...my wife says, maybe I'm not really happy. We'll see what thay means
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Thanks! You too! 
I feel like I'm on the verge on something, I just hope it's positive! 
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